Time for a change.

Of one with perseverance

Of one who is limitless

Of one who is optimistic 

Of one with confidence in themselves and others

Of one with someone to love them as much as they love them

Of one who has accomplished

Of one who is adored

Of one who is adventurous and random

Of one who is artistic

Of one who follows their dreams

Of one who is unashamed

Of one who is determined

Of the situation

Of her

Of them

Of the fact

I am jealous

I'm sick of doing the things I do and thinking the way I do... I don't know how to change it. But these are the things I thrive to be or do. I don't want to hurt anyone or myself anymore... 

One year anniversary...

...of my black eye

I love Katie Kelly =]

The Life of a 21 year old.

The crazy birthday weekend is finally over and I must say I had a blast.

My new favorite drink = hello kitty. chyeah.

Now that I had fun, it's time to work my ass off for this concert. Shouldn't be too bad except I can't breath. ( literally) 

&& the whole rob and i think was shot to hell. We just didn't mesh well. maybe next time.

Also, I'm sick of my stupidness. If you know me you know what I'm talking about.Ugh.

I'm going to Jazz well Hip hop. I'm excited.. haven't seen Miss Teena Marie since I got back. 

Here are some crazy ASS pictures. Check it =]

Finally Legal.

So it's officially my birthday.. i thought i would be cliche and stay up till midnight just so i could see how it feels to be 21. Pretty exciting, now I am ready for bed... haha. I tell ya my friends are just incredible, i really can't get over it. Anyways.. I am pretty excited for my first night at the bar =] woot woot. But I have realized I'm finally an adult, ick. However I do believe I have learned a lot this past year and I have grown a great deal. Even though my heart and soul is that of a ten year old, My mind is that of a 21 year old. YES!

My grandmother gave me a little ballerina music jewelry box when i was home for my birthday and in it she had a note that said "Open on January 14, 2009". So cute. I just wanted to share what it says because my grandma is the sweetest lady. 

"to Jennifer

When you turned 16 I wrote you a note. With all the health problems I had at that time, I didn't know if i'd be here for your 21st birthday. But here I am...pen in hand and "words of wisdom" to give!

No preaching, just two things I want you to remember.

Don't ever drink and drive.

Don't ever let anyone talk you into drinking more than you can handle.

I want you to have a long happy life. You're my one and only grand daughter and you're very special to me.

Love,

Grandma"

*tear*

Survival of the first day back to modern =]

Well first day of class..

9 am. - woman and aging.. My teacher is nuts i just can't get over it.. maybe even nuttier then ursula but in a strange way.. but seems like it'll be an easy class.

10:35 am. - Dance Composition II with the one the only Noooora. Not much to say about this class except i have no idea what my prop piece is going to be but should be another simple class just like lma and comp I. 

2:00 pm - Modern. and let me tell ya i was scared to death that she was going to kill us. It's hard to tell what she's going to do but she decided to take it easy and I'm glad. I think we just need to ease into everything since we know none of us danced over break {{ oopsie }}. However I am extremely fed up with people who cheat their way through everything. There are some of us who work our asses off and actually earn what we get but then there are others who beg their way and push authority to get what they want. whatever =] OH yeah and she suggested to write in a journal about stuff we need to work on and successes we've had well being the first day back not much to say but i feel like my core is in tact i hope it stays that way!

Overall it was a good day. I was happy to see some faces and  others not so much. We checked out the new and improved dining hall which was packed but once we got inside it was nice.

I am currently waiting for my rep class 5:30-8 im sure ( well hoping) that we don't stay the whole time cause then I have rehearsal 8-9:30.

P. S. I have a male friend.. his name is Robb.. && he made me dinner last night ( hamburger helper) maybe one day he'll make me lasagna or something =] 

The Rock.

I arrived back in good ol'e snowy slippery rock yesterday. Let me tell ya it was a loooong drive. So much snow. But I am glad I made it, it's good to see the faces of my favorites again =]. This first week back is going to be a doozy. But I honestly can't wait to get back into the jist of things ( something i never though i would say ). what can I say I love to dance and I love my friends! Anyways... I unpacked last night in a good amount of time... I also tried to get rid of things and make some extra space. It always makes me feel better doing that =]. Although I am psyched about being back I miss my family an awful lot. Ugh and one thing i did not miss are the massive sounds of men feet above me. Welcome back =]

L is for the way you look at me

I've been hanging out with this guy rob since I've been home on break we've been talking for quite a while he's in the military (( I know I know )) well he's coming home on leave this next week.... Shouldn't I be overly excited since I may have feelings for this boy? I don't get it he makes me smile a lot and he likes me too. I used to get so excited to see josh even when I just saw him the day before maybe its because I had a previous history with him but I just feel like that relationship took everything I had and I don't have any fire left in me. Way to put out the fire josh. I just want to move on and be happy with it. Okay?

ready for the new year

2008 has been a big one for me. I've learned so much about what I want and who my real friends are. I have actually become more comfortable with myself, I can sit at home by myself and not always have to be around someone because I can enjoy my company. -- I have also realized how I should be treated in means of friends and how I should treat them and what a real friendship is. I have the best friends in the world and have realized that even though I may be alone in the room I still have people who care for me and love me greatly. They are what I'm thankful for. When I was in high school I was so scared to go off to college and lose my friends but there are only 2 people I talk to from high school and the ones who are around are the only true ones I am so happy I was able to meet the best friend I have now and I know they will be with me forever. So my new years resolution is to work on myself and my selfesteem and to also have a better outlook on life and the future to concentrate on the future and to not dwell on the past. Oh and maybe drop a few pounds and tone up at bit ;) hears to 2009.